Sunday, July 19, 2009

Dear Chase...

Dear Chase,

This morning when I went to get you out of your crib, yes you are finally sleeping in your crib, you gave me the sweetest smile I have ever seen. I can not tell you how much your mommy and daddy love you. When I talk about it or think about you, it can bring tears to my eyes in an instant. Every morning we have talk time and you are really getting verbal. I swear today you told me " I love you mommy" but I could be wrong. I cherish the moments when you fall asleep on my chest and I can hear your little sounds while you sleep. I had a hard time putting you in your crib because I missed rolling over and seeing your sweet face sleeping. So my sweet boy, you are going to be 12 weeks this week. It is crazy how big you get every day. I love you sweet munchies, so so much.

I heard song that made me think of you...

Don't know much about you
Don't know who you are
We've been doing fine without you
But, we could only go so far
Don't know why you chose us
Were you watching from above
Is there someone there that knows us
Said we'd give you all our love
Will you laugh just like your mother
Will you sigh like you old man
Will some things skip a generation
Like I've often heard they can
Are you a poet or a dancer
A devil or a clown
Or a strange new combination
of the things we handed down
I wonder who you'll look like
Will your hair fall down and curl
Will you be a mommy's boy
Or daddy's little girl
Will you be a sad reminder
Of what's been lost along the way
Maybe you can help me find her
In the things you do and say
And these things that we have given you
They are not so easily found
But you can thank us later
For the things we handed down

Monday, April 13, 2009

The Final Stretch

As you all know I haven't been very good about updating my blog, but I though that should try to get another post in before Baby "S" arrives. We are at 37 weeks and it is unbelievable. Where has the time gone? At moments it seemed the days would stretch on forever while some weeks would pass like a blink of an eye. I can't wait for Baby "S" to arrive, but on the other hand I will miss the watching my belly dance and feeling the pokes and kicks in the middle of the night. As much as I can't sleep and could barely put on my shoes, I will miss this feeling. I have loved being pregnant and feel blessed that everything went as it did. I only hope the rest of it will be as amazing.

Today, I go in for my appointment and ultrasound. They want to take measurements of the baby because they are worried it will be a fat little thing. If you have seen my stomach lately, it is probably on its way! They will also check to see if I have dialated anymore. At my last appointment I was 1 centimeter dialated and 30% effaced. I am just hoping the baby will hold off until my mom gets here!

Here are some pictures that my amazing friend Kelle took of my pregnancy. How amazing that I will have these pictures that captured my pregnancy so perfectly. Thank you Kel, I love you!

It is an absolute miracle that this tiny baby has grown for the last 9 months in my belly. It has grown eyelashes, fingernails, organs, eyeballs, etc. Then this miracle comes out and it is your baby. One that was made from two people who love eachother. You are responsible for the rest of your life for this miracle. I just can't get over it. It is truly amazing. So the next post may be of the sweet Senkarik. It is unbelievable!

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

26 Weeks and counting....

Time is officially standing still.
Somedays I feel like I will carry the baby until I am old and wrinkled. Can you imagine? Too weird! Other days though seem to fly by and a part of me starts to panic. I haven't gotten my furniture, I haven't taken my labor and delivery class, I haven't had my shower, how could it be moving so fast? That's not a day I had today. Today was endless.
I just read my blog about my flutters and it's crazy how much changes in 8 weeks. I don't just have flutters now, I have punches. Sometimes I feel like I have a 12 lb. baby in there because there is no way a 2 lb. little baby can be this strong. At my 32 week appointment I expect to see some huge muscles on those arms! I am consumed with my pregnancy. I read baby magazines, go on every baby website imaginable to see what this week will bring although they all say the same thing, I watch every baby show and cry at every babies birth. It is all encompassing.
People ask me "Do you like being pregnant", my answer is absolutely, 100% yes. I feel like I am a part of a secret mothers club. When I pass another expecting mom, we grin at eachother like we have a secret. I love feeling the kicks even if I am awoken at 3:30. It is so worth every lb, every sleepless night, every bathroom trip, every drinkless weekend. It is worth everything. Do I like being pregnant? Without a doubt.
I can't wait to meet my sweet baby. It is 14 weeks until I hold that baby in my arms. I envision the delivery, I envision what the baby will look like. I have never been so sure and so unsure of something in my life. It is like a rollercoaster ride. So much excitement, so much fear, so much anxiety, and so much fun. I am ready for the rollercoaster ride. I will be sitting in the very frontrow, hands in the air, screaming "Woo-Hoo". Bring it on!